Only your real friends will tell you when your face is dirty. – Sicilian Proverb
A friend accepts us as we are yet helps us to be what we should. – Author Unknown
Pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall. – Proverbs 16:18 ESV
2 months.
the discoveries/happenings of last weekend [if they are indeed true, and i think they are] have been bothering me a lot this week and adding to the weight on my shoulders and the exhaustion i feel. it makes me feel like being antisocial and being withdrawn. i feel like the wicked witch of the east with a house smashing her literally. how did i end up with the entire burden of this house on me? the whole situation has me pretty mad… that the root of the cause hasn’t been made apparent and it’s all lain on me instead. looking back on everything i did for this house and am doing, and how much i pay monetarily (and half the stuff we use communally is from my place that i brought over at no cost to anyone) plus how much time i spend commuting to work and the cost of gas… this really wasn’t any sort of deal for me. maybe i’m just feeling bitter, but i didn’t save on anything by moving here. if anything, it’s cost me more than money… now i’ve got a group of people who have “shunned me” in a sense, people who were previously mutual friends… meanwhile my community of friends (whom i’m extremely grateful for) are still loving and caring towards the person who’s the problem. and they should be… they should be caring and encourage this person to mature and grow up. so seriously, who should pull the Christian card on whom? it makes me so mad. i hate it when people are so self-absorbed and inconsiderate… all they care about is themselves and they fail to see the bigger picture. when confronted they don’t apologize and act like they’re the victim. gah. so many should’ves, so many regrets (and i hate regretting) but i really should’ve stopped this long before it began and just said no.
how do you stop the cycle of self-absorption? how do you get someone to see the bigger picture? are we at an age where it’s too late?
The past month has been crazy… and now it’s really getting close to Haiti time! I haven’t had a vacation in over two years haha… and I am soooo looking forward to this! (Yea, I’m weird)
Some random brain spurts…
Fundraising is complete thanks to my lovely friends and family. <3
Finished my Typhoid immunization series… had one episode of very upset stomach, but otherwise it went smoothly.
Got my shots… have to get the second Hep A shot in 6 months, but this makes my trip out next year (hopefully I get accepted again!) a lot easier and painless :)
Malarone is SUPER expensive!! :O
I’m doing crazy prep over preventing mosquito bites. I’ve got anti-mosquito spray, this anti-mosquito bracelet to wear / hang around my bed, and this treatment spray to douse all of my clothes. Fun fun! :P I refuse to be a mosquito magnet on this trip!
I’m going to try renting a camera lens (rather than buying the one I want) for the trip. This way I can test out the lens and use it for cheap. I’m going to limit myself to only bringing one lens this trip so hopefully there aren’t any issues!
I’m going to bring my flip cam too but I haven’t decided what I’m going to do with it. Trying to film a mini-doc and take the photos I plan to take (surprise series if i can pull it off) might be too much for me to handle in one week :T
When I get home I’ll get to judge a contest at work. So busy haha :) but it’s fun… definitely lots of new challenges in store for me as I grow with this company.
And I’m sooo looking forward to an improved housing situation. FO SHIZZLE lol. Back to living like I’ve been out of college for 6 years (cuz I have!) And maybe buy a house? We’ll see :)